The ugly truth 

Hi everyone,
Sorry this blog is late I will explain why down below. I am trying to keep these blogs as upbeat as possible to show that even with all of these conditions you can still enjoy life and the things you love doing. 

However this blog is going to show some of the worst symptoms that I endure and why it is hard to always make light of it. So as part of these conditions I have problems with my stomach as well, so I can’t eat certain foods without becoming really poorly. I ended up having to go to hospital on Friday night due to something to do with my stomach (I won’t go into the gory details as they are not really necessary) anyway I ended up having to call 111 for advice and then had to go to the hospital to get checked out. 

As per usual they couldn’t find anything wrong upon initial investigation this tends to be what always happens with GP’s and hospitals (all three of my conditions took 11 years to fully diagnose) so I got passed the codeine and told to monitor my symptoms. Low and behold they are still happening and I still feel bloody awful. 

When you are given really heavy painkillers it basically means that you are then out for the count for a few days whilst your body adjusts to them, the worst part is the side effects that come with these medications. For example the codeine that I am taking is really strong and as a result I slept all weekend and was so tired and delirious that I kept crying because I was so frustrated with my own body! 

I am now having the worst pain flare up that I have had in a while so I am spending my days taking tramadol and wearing heat packs at every moment I can, however tramadol gives me the worst shakes and makes me feel like I am not even in the room. This would be enough to stop most people from going to work all week, however I now find that because I am in a job that I love I would rather be at work with all of my supportive colleagues than on my own at home. 

Sitting at home all day in pain on your own actually makes things worse for me, like I will sit at home and most of the time would sit and cry because it is way to much to try and handle on your own. That is why I am so thankful to my mum, sister and Ross they are always there for me whenever I need them even if it is just to have a rant about how awful I feel. It’s not an easy thing for them to deal with either as there is no way that anyone can physically help me as it won’t ever be cured but just knowing that I have their support helps me loads. 

I also want my blogs to become a support network if they can, to make sure that everyone knows that you are not alone in your battles, be in physical or mental health. If anyone ever needs a shoulder to lean on I will always be prepared to be there for them. 

I am going to sign off here and I promise Saturdays blog will be a lot more up beat and happy! I just needed to get that off of my chest, and also wanted to say a big thanks to my mum, my sister Bethany and Ross for being the best support network I have!

Signing off for now,

Scarlett x